Finally, the bitter part of losing someone has set in. I swear the sadness cycle thing really is true. But anyway, this isn't a rant or anything and I'm really not making myself sound pathetic. I guess I already am, and I started off already pathetic and weak. I would like to believe that things are going to get better anyway. So I guess I'm really going to be fine. 

I still believe in love. I just don't believe in people that much anymore. I know people are people and there are times when I have my own issues and disappoint and let down people. But I just think that people are so scary in general. I would appreciate some rawness in people, even if they are ugly or embarrassing. We always try to hide everything about us in fear that others would look at us differently. But whether or not we hide or bare them, people are still going to talk about us and everything. So why not be honest with ourselves? So I think I'm going to have problems trusting people in the future because the last few times I did, I ended up feeling like I should slap myself again and again and again.

In case anyone is having any problems now, here's something that got me thinking: Look at your life now, and imagine if it were to be the same 10 years down the road. So why are you so afraid of change?

Finally, the bitter part of losing someone has set in. I swear the sadness cycle thing really is true. But anyway, this isn't a rant or anything and I'm really not making myself sound pathetic. I guess I already am, and I started off already pathetic and weak. I would like to believe that things are going to get better anyway. So I guess I'm really going to be fine. 

I still believe in love. I just don't believe in people that much anymore. I know people are people and there are times when I have my own issues and disappoint and let down people. But I just think that people are so scary in general. I would appreciate some rawness in people, even if they are ugly or embarrassing. We always try to hide everything about us in fear that others would look at us differently. But whether or not we hide or bare them, people are still going to talk about us and everything. So why not be honest with ourselves? So I think I'm going to have problems trusting people in the future because the last few times I did, I ended up feeling like I should slap myself again and again and again.

In case anyone is having any problems now, here's something that got me thinking: Look at your life now, and imagine if it were to be the same 10 years down the road. So why are you so afraid of change?