Once upon a time I was falling in love but now I'm only falling apart.
Saturday, February 8, 20141:06 AM
"Her heart was a secret garden and the walls were very high..."
BEFORE TYPING ANYTHING because good things are meant to be shared:
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Finally it's Friday. I've been waiting for this week to end. Maybe it's the post-cny syndrome where life just seems so boring and meaningless, especially since it doesn't involve sleeping in and eating lots of good food anymore. I've been feeling so tired nowadays no matter what time I sleep and what time I wake up. It's like just a few days of slacking and not waking up at 6 have gotten me totally out of track. Totally regret eating so much during CNY because netball and PE suddenly got ten times worse oh my.
I really want to go to Chock Full of Beans for coffee and good food.
Finally found something to do since school started for SJ and even though sometimes I feel direction-less, at least now I've got something on my hands. Probably not ready to take on a new SMC, especially when it's brand new and I'm finally feeling the stress to produce something so so so new. It's like, everything that would mould the kids would start from me??? That sounds pretty scary already.
Went back with Soong and Peiqi after RT today and even though it wasn't with all of them but it felt good and familiar again. I need some consistency in my life.
I think it scares me that whatever I write here can be seen by the world and sometimes even though I want people to know things that I've been dying to get out, it also scares me that it defeats the purpose of writing things down sometimes, especially when you omit things you're going to say just because they can be read by everyone.
xoxo,
me
