"Got to get out..."

Have been so crazily busy and tired that I haven't been on the computer for almost a week. It's crazy. I'm still trying to get used to Senior High life and even though it's been Day 4 of official lessons, I guess sometimes I just find myself panting at how fast paced everything is going.

School honestly sucks. I don't think there's any good part about being in Senior High. Yet. I'm quite sure I'd find something I like about Senior High in the near future but so far nothing appeals to me. In the past it used to be the greatest thing on earth to get free periods and all but then when I actually experience them EXCESSIVELY, sometimes I just wish they never existed because it's simply unproductive. And because my class doesn't have a homeroom we spend the entire time running from classes to classes and it's like we're technically homeless and no where to go other than the canteen/library during free periods ): So sad.

Today was pretty great (other than the horrible stomach ache) and even though I'm super tired from CCA I guess today's weather was really good (: Especially because it was windy and sunny at the right time. And netball today was good (: I guess it was because the coach was in a good mood so she wasn't all fierce and snappy today hahahahaha, and I guess it felt great to play with all of them on a better level after all the pep talk hahahaha. 

The talks with my parents about my subject combination is STILL going on. It's currently week 2 of school and we haven't reached a point of compromise or approval at all. And it's really getting very tiring. I don't know, I just don't like to quit on something I've started and maybe when I look back one day I'd realise I've made the wrong decision but I'm going to be glad because I didn't give up on what I wanted so badly at all. It's going to be hard and I feel so afraid to venture into the unknown but I want to give it my best shot because that's all I have for now.

It's kind of demoralising to go to school and feel like you're neither here nor there and people start worrying about how you're going to cope, or maybe they simply doubt that you can cope. And how am I supposed to believe entirely in myself when people are just making me feel so unsure about my capabilities?

I wish we could finally find some peace. 

Dead tired, and there's so many things waiting for me ): 

xoxo,

me

"Got to get out..."

Have been so crazily busy and tired that I haven't been on the computer for almost a week. It's crazy. I'm still trying to get used to Senior High life and even though it's been Day 4 of official lessons, I guess sometimes I just find myself panting at how fast paced everything is going.

School honestly sucks. I don't think there's any good part about being in Senior High. Yet. I'm quite sure I'd find something I like about Senior High in the near future but so far nothing appeals to me. In the past it used to be the greatest thing on earth to get free periods and all but then when I actually experience them EXCESSIVELY, sometimes I just wish they never existed because it's simply unproductive. And because my class doesn't have a homeroom we spend the entire time running from classes to classes and it's like we're technically homeless and no where to go other than the canteen/library during free periods ): So sad.

Today was pretty great (other than the horrible stomach ache) and even though I'm super tired from CCA I guess today's weather was really good (: Especially because it was windy and sunny at the right time. And netball today was good (: I guess it was because the coach was in a good mood so she wasn't all fierce and snappy today hahahahaha, and I guess it felt great to play with all of them on a better level after all the pep talk hahahaha. 

The talks with my parents about my subject combination is STILL going on. It's currently week 2 of school and we haven't reached a point of compromise or approval at all. And it's really getting very tiring. I don't know, I just don't like to quit on something I've started and maybe when I look back one day I'd realise I've made the wrong decision but I'm going to be glad because I didn't give up on what I wanted so badly at all. It's going to be hard and I feel so afraid to venture into the unknown but I want to give it my best shot because that's all I have for now.

It's kind of demoralising to go to school and feel like you're neither here nor there and people start worrying about how you're going to cope, or maybe they simply doubt that you can cope. And how am I supposed to believe entirely in myself when people are just making me feel so unsure about my capabilities?

I wish we could finally find some peace. 

Dead tired, and there's so many things waiting for me ): 

xoxo,

me