Well you only need the light when it's burning low, only miss the sun when it starts to snow, only know you love her when you let her go, only know you've been high when you're feeling low, only hate the road when you're missing home, only know you love her when you let her go.
Sunday, September 1, 201310:45 PM
"And never ever let the world get the best of you..."
I guess I got my life back on track after it derailed again yesterday. I don't know how interesting it's going to get if it's possible to ride a train of life backwards and see how the entire way has been.
Have been wasting a lot of time recently on youtube not because I'm bored (okay I am) but because I am still searching for a soul-stirring song. And I think I searched so so so so so long before finding songs like the one for the title but ugh, as much as it's meaningful, it doesn't have the oomph I'm looking for. Maybe I should set up my own record label and I'm going to be the horrible picky manager who looks through Youtube 24/7 365 days in search of a few good song covers. Hmm, sounds like a plan.
Okay but really, we should appreciate everything around us now. Literally everything. Even the worst things in life. Just a thought but you know how people always like to say "worst day of my life" and "worst thing that has ever happened to me" but you're only 16 and you've only been living for 365 days multiply by 16, and you probably have many many years to come so how can you be sure it's your "worst" day? And "worst" is the kind of word that is tied to an extremity, so I think it's only rightfully applicable when it's your last day on Earth and you look upon the __ years of your life and decide which day was really the worst. So before we say that it's the "worst day" and hate our day and hate our lives, we should realise how we're actually lucky to be alive because at the moment when we don't want our lives, there's someone else at the other end of the world wishing for one more breath. I have no idea what I just typed, someone please check my brains.
But at the same time, I do agree that sometimes life gets so ridiculous that we shouldn't live.
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| I don't know why but this random picture on Tumblr caught my attention. Maybe it's because there was this period of time when this was so so so common. Every time we fought I just felt so tired and wish that he'd give in because I'm not one to give up my point and I never saw that I was wrong. And every time when I don't see the need to continue this argument, I would just go "whatever" which pisses him off even more. Then we end up fighting even more. When in actual fact I just wish we fought less because it made us end so badly anyway. |
Anyway, today was great mainly because I finally got to see the standard twos as a squad again :') I mean, I talk to some of them frequently and see them after trainings and things like that, but I haven't seen ALL of them in ages and it's really sad ): Oh well, even though it was for a short while but it was great I guess (: Irony when the trip home was longer than how long I stayed there xD But yeppppp, that was basically my day (other than church and tuition and all that) (:
Chasing relentlessly.
I wish God would give me a glimpse of what's in store for me in the coming years. I know the entire idea about living is to be kept in suspense and be surprised by how things turn out in the end, but sometimes I just really wish I could figure out what I'm doing all these for and how things are going to end. I don't want to be working my life away for something that's not going to work out at the end of the day, and I don't want to give up on something of me that could turn out right anyway.
Alright. I need the holidays now. Right now. I'm so tired and my head hurts and it's going to explode so goodbye.
xoxo,
me
