To let you go at a moment that shines more brilliantly than tears like this
Thursday, August 8, 201312:09 AM
"Burn all the scars you've exchanged for that love..."
Currently very very very amused by 4D's class whatsapp chat (/ /U/ /) I have no idea what these people are doing with their lives, I think they dedicate too much of it trolling and being a joke xD Now they're making puns out of our surnames omg kill me now ((((x Hahahaha seriously.
We can't "unlove" somebody.
Today was a relatively good day (: And I'm glad that it was (: Wanted to go to school to run today but I remembered that I wasn't supposed to do any physical exercise for 24 hours and there were people having napfa retest so I'd be an ass if I went there to run :O Then flag raising with all the usual National Day stuff and Tiffany and I were disappointed because during the recollections, we didn't hear the famous "they had no rights, they had no say, and they longed to be free one day" D: I think it got lost among all the different languages TT^TT After that went to area outside MRL to get ready for CIP and we were devastated to realise that WE HAD NO BUS )))): So sad ): You provide a ride to East Coast Park but no ride to Tampines??? .___. #lackoflogic So we had to march like red ants to take the MRT hahahaha.
I'm not sure if it's just my face that keeps people away and stuff like that but I thought it was really hard to get people to write notes for the kids from CCF ): Nevertheless, I guess it's always the experience that matters. I was quite disheartened at the fact that most Singaporeans are so quick to reject you and even when they do, they don't do it in a nice way. I don't know it it's just me but my parents have always taught me that when I am in such a situation and I don't want to donate or anything, reject them nicely and always remember to say "thank you". But today, I've met people who just show you their palm (like what's that supposed to mean, "talk to my hand"?) or they just stare straight ahead and continue walking (sorry, I know I'm not that pretty, but can you at least acknowledge me) or they simply cut you off and say "no, I don't want to donate" ('scuse me sir, but if you had bothered to listen, we weren't after your money). Aw man, all the unfriendly people. But of course when there are unfriendly people, there are friendly people as well (: Like this group of guys who were uninterested at first but when they found out it was for cancer patients and one of them went for HFH, all of them wrote something (: And the lady who was very encouraged that it was for kids and wrote a very very very long note (: And two really nice secondary school girls who were very happy that we were doing this because they just had a HFH initiative back in their school too (: NICE PEOPLE STILL EXIST! :DDD
Ms Poh and Mr Han bought donuts for us and yay I was so happy because I love sweet food :') Finished sorting out the notes and filtering them, and completed our reflections before we were dismissed! Went to Daiso with Jamie because she wanted to get her dried bananas which I commented dryly (PUN!) that she could have gotten many many many packets from Bangkok at super cheap prices and she just glared at me and asked me if I thought she was going to Bangkok any time soon :x Then off to Night Market to get cheap takoyaki balls nyahahahaha. And Jamie was being an embarrassment because we were deciding if we should buy from the chinese stall or the malay stall. Then we just picked the malay stall because I said the food looked nicer and she told me she wanted to get 6 chicken balls. But when the person asked her what flavour she wanted, she told the person "6 Malays" OMFGGGGGGGGGGG kill me now hahahahaha the person's face xDDD Wtf hahahahahaha ('X After she left, met up with Lau who came from school to have starbucks and I finally tried their cotton candy frappuccino after being broke for so long ): Had a nice long talk at starbucks and I'm glad it happened (: Talked about things that I wouldn't tell anyone at any rate so I guess it was good to have someone to tell these things to, especially someone who is actually there and does not resemble a blog post or a wall. Went home and I just blacked out because I was so so so tired D:
Dad came and picked me up to bring me to City Square Mall where my sister and cousin have been camping there for an hour plus to wait for B.A.P lolololol x____x Wasn't exactly thrilled to be squeezing with all the fans hurhurhur. I mean, yes I like them but not to the extent where I balance on a stool with a dslr and poke people in their faces with my signboard and scream 'til their eardrums burst. Yep, definitely not like that. BUT I'm still glad that I got to catch a glimpse of all of them (': It feels different to see them on a computer screen and in real life. It's like, you finally feel like they're real * U * /sobs at their perfection/ Zelo's red/pink hair + Daehyun's heart + Yongguk's sexy voice + Youngjae looking super good in real life + Himchan's smile + Jongup's blue hair omggggg, I really don't know what to say 8) Hahahaha.
Really have no idea how I'm going to carry on with you because when I'm happy with you I'm really very happy, but when you make me feel bad about myself, it's really so so bad.
“Breathe. You’re going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you’ve been in this place before. You’ve been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you’ve survived. Breathe and know that you can survive this too. These feelings can’t break you. They’re painful and debilitating, but you can sit with them and eventually, they will pass. Maybe not immediately, but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do, you’ll look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience. I know it feels unbearable right now, but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass. I promise it will pass.”
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Daniell Koepke
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People who try to bring their points across in the wrong way.
Alright, that's all I guess (: It has been an eventful day (: Enjoy the long weekends (very long weekends!) and happy birthday Singapore~
xoxo,
me
“Please Know:
Whether it’s the days you burn more brilliant than the sun,
Or the nights you collapse into my lap, curling your body into a thousand broken questions;
You are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
I will love you when you are a still day.
I will love you when you are a hurricane.”
Whether it’s the days you burn more brilliant than the sun,
Or the nights you collapse into my lap, curling your body into a thousand broken questions;
You are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
I will love you when you are a still day.
I will love you when you are a hurricane.”
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