"When love is all too hard to hold, just take a breath and let it go..."

Being a public nuisance and blasting music from We The Kings at 12:46AM (x Hurhurhur. Just finished watching Battleship with the family and I was gloating that they have to go to bed right after that because they have school and work tomorrow but yours truly here is about to morph into an owl and fly into the night sky and sit on a roof and finish up her homework and study ):

>> #throwbackEDS: Hurhurhur. Met NA, Pengfei and Soong at Paya Lebar station before heading to KLP to meet up with the rest (x Then had Starbucks ;D (perks of having a card woohoo~) After everyone finished eating we walked to school hahahaha. Yessir, the whole bunch of us didn't take the train or a bus or anything because we didn't want to see people on the way to school hahahahaha. So we walked and it felt surprisingly short O___O The concert was really great (: I think it was the best over the four years (Y) Hahaha honestly (: The dramas were great and then dances were just so...good hahahaha I'm sorry for my lack of vocabulary but there isn't a word apt enough to describe how awesome it was (: GREAT JOB EDS! Hahahaha. After that took photos and stuff and then went to look for Jamie to give her Awfully Chocolate (omg, bitch, please be grateful, I've NEVER bought expensive awfully chocolate related things for anyone - you're a first * U *) and my card which I painstakingly tried to find appropriate words to write (x And got a Polaroid with her because our photo was screwed hahahahaha. Oh well. And then went home and my parents weren't even home yet (x And on twitter and instagram, everyone was just exclaiming how awesome it was and I agree with everything they said~ So cute. Epic moments:

Me: She's the one in the tube dress.

Pengfei: ...what's a tube dress.

Me: ..........you don't know what a tube dress is.

Yihui/Yongli/Phang: OMG, a dress without straps la! (points and tries to explain to this frigging country bumpkin TT^TT)

Pengfei: Ohhh....but like that the dress will drop what!!

Yihui: WHATTHEHELL, that's what you're waiting for right!!!

#killmenow hahahaha, that's my dear squadmates for you (:

Today...LOL, totally regret sleeping at 2+AM because I was just totally drained out halfway through tuition .__. UGH. Hahahaha and we were doing, or rather, continuing with organic chemistry --.-- And it's the first time that I actually willingly did my homework but...turns out that my answer was incomplete and there were like, 6 more other isomers to draw to a C7H16 ))): And it's so difficult to understand == Went home after that and the rest of the night was spent with my family over dinner and I ate 'til I could explode O___O

Read Mr Lim's email to us and I really wish he was still our teacher in-charge. I really got to hand it to SJ teachers, really. Especially when Ms Lim shared with me how they picked teachers, and I just understood why SJ teachers are all like that: they like to talk, they like to understand you and stuff. And I really appreciate that. Lately, or maybe since forever, I've not been doing what people want me to do and so I really am not going to follow what others tell me to do because what's the point of having a freaking brain if all I do is let people make decisions for me? Might as well dump the brain and be a robot. Mr Lim's emails never ever fail to make me feel heartened, especially since he went through all our dark periods with us and I think he understood what we were feeling. Everyone needs someone to push them on and "To be the best squad that has yet to be." - Mr Lim

These two years have been a roller-coaster ride for me and as much as it's no easy job, I really enjoy all those gems and nuggets I get along the way. I've learnt so much more these two years and I'm glad I did. They've let me view life as it is and it's not the way I thought it once was. And people. I enjoy studying people, and it's no more of being self-centered, when we all know how our actions implicate others. I've definitely grown a spine, and thoughts of my own, be it good or bad. No one understands anyone until they've been in their shoes, but when you try to, you get a glimpse into their mind and even if you don't understand, you start to know. In any case, I'm just trying to say that I can't wait to see what the world has in store for me.

When I tell you things, that make me sound like I'm insecure, it is never to fish compliments from any of you, but because I really feel insecure about myself. It's not about reassuring me that I'm not what I think I am, but rather, I'm acknowledging the fact that, I might not be what everyone think I am. This sense of insecurity has gotten so bad that at times I can't even make myself believe anything others say. It's not even skin deep anymore. It just exists in every inch of me. It's not even about just merely telling people how I feel, but because it's really bothering me. It's hard not to think about such things when all society looks at is everything you can show, not what's hiding inside. I can't even blame anyone because everyone's the same, isn't it?

Maybe I just have too much emotions for myself to handle.

Alright. Goodbye. Time to do my reading for LA ):

xoxo,

meeeeee 

"When love is all too hard to hold, just take a breath and let it go..."

Being a public nuisance and blasting music from We The Kings at 12:46AM (x Hurhurhur. Just finished watching Battleship with the family and I was gloating that they have to go to bed right after that because they have school and work tomorrow but yours truly here is about to morph into an owl and fly into the night sky and sit on a roof and finish up her homework and study ):

>> #throwbackEDS: Hurhurhur. Met NA, Pengfei and Soong at Paya Lebar station before heading to KLP to meet up with the rest (x Then had Starbucks ;D (perks of having a card woohoo~) After everyone finished eating we walked to school hahahaha. Yessir, the whole bunch of us didn't take the train or a bus or anything because we didn't want to see people on the way to school hahahahaha. So we walked and it felt surprisingly short O___O The concert was really great (: I think it was the best over the four years (Y) Hahaha honestly (: The dramas were great and then dances were just so...good hahahaha I'm sorry for my lack of vocabulary but there isn't a word apt enough to describe how awesome it was (: GREAT JOB EDS! Hahahaha. After that took photos and stuff and then went to look for Jamie to give her Awfully Chocolate (omg, bitch, please be grateful, I've NEVER bought expensive awfully chocolate related things for anyone - you're a first * U *) and my card which I painstakingly tried to find appropriate words to write (x And got a Polaroid with her because our photo was screwed hahahahaha. Oh well. And then went home and my parents weren't even home yet (x And on twitter and instagram, everyone was just exclaiming how awesome it was and I agree with everything they said~ So cute. Epic moments:

Me: She's the one in the tube dress.

Pengfei: ...what's a tube dress.

Me: ..........you don't know what a tube dress is.

Yihui/Yongli/Phang: OMG, a dress without straps la! (points and tries to explain to this frigging country bumpkin TT^TT)

Pengfei: Ohhh....but like that the dress will drop what!!

Yihui: WHATTHEHELL, that's what you're waiting for right!!!

#killmenow hahahaha, that's my dear squadmates for you (:

Today...LOL, totally regret sleeping at 2+AM because I was just totally drained out halfway through tuition .__. UGH. Hahahaha and we were doing, or rather, continuing with organic chemistry --.-- And it's the first time that I actually willingly did my homework but...turns out that my answer was incomplete and there were like, 6 more other isomers to draw to a C7H16 ))): And it's so difficult to understand == Went home after that and the rest of the night was spent with my family over dinner and I ate 'til I could explode O___O

Read Mr Lim's email to us and I really wish he was still our teacher in-charge. I really got to hand it to SJ teachers, really. Especially when Ms Lim shared with me how they picked teachers, and I just understood why SJ teachers are all like that: they like to talk, they like to understand you and stuff. And I really appreciate that. Lately, or maybe since forever, I've not been doing what people want me to do and so I really am not going to follow what others tell me to do because what's the point of having a freaking brain if all I do is let people make decisions for me? Might as well dump the brain and be a robot. Mr Lim's emails never ever fail to make me feel heartened, especially since he went through all our dark periods with us and I think he understood what we were feeling. Everyone needs someone to push them on and "To be the best squad that has yet to be." - Mr Lim

These two years have been a roller-coaster ride for me and as much as it's no easy job, I really enjoy all those gems and nuggets I get along the way. I've learnt so much more these two years and I'm glad I did. They've let me view life as it is and it's not the way I thought it once was. And people. I enjoy studying people, and it's no more of being self-centered, when we all know how our actions implicate others. I've definitely grown a spine, and thoughts of my own, be it good or bad. No one understands anyone until they've been in their shoes, but when you try to, you get a glimpse into their mind and even if you don't understand, you start to know. In any case, I'm just trying to say that I can't wait to see what the world has in store for me.

When I tell you things, that make me sound like I'm insecure, it is never to fish compliments from any of you, but because I really feel insecure about myself. It's not about reassuring me that I'm not what I think I am, but rather, I'm acknowledging the fact that, I might not be what everyone think I am. This sense of insecurity has gotten so bad that at times I can't even make myself believe anything others say. It's not even skin deep anymore. It just exists in every inch of me. It's not even about just merely telling people how I feel, but because it's really bothering me. It's hard not to think about such things when all society looks at is everything you can show, not what's hiding inside. I can't even blame anyone because everyone's the same, isn't it?

Maybe I just have too much emotions for myself to handle.

Alright. Goodbye. Time to do my reading for LA ):

xoxo,

meeeeee