Making you smile.
Sunday, May 19, 201311:51 PM
I don't know where I stand in people's lives.
One minute they treat me like the most important person to them,
then like I'm nothing to them the next minute.
Am I paranoid, or is this actually real to other people?
(: Feeling more energetic than what I've been for the past week and I'm glad because I still have homework and some SJ stuff to clear .___. Gonna need all the energy I can get~ Guys, tomorrow is Monday ): That's the start to another torturous week ahead D:
>> Saturday: COMPTRAIN ((: Went to school and realised that the kids were going to marina barrage for their cpbs badge thingy hahahaha (x Did 2 home nursing cases with Keane as our patient and omg, you should've seen his face when we entered case (((x Like "DAFUQ!?" hahahahaha, must be because we were too gay already xD But it was fun nonetheless hahahaha. After that mentors made us pack up and go to the foyer. And...........WE FOLLOWED THE KIDS TO MARINA BARRAGE! (: Hahahahahaha. But we forgot to bring a lot of essential stuff la O___O We had comptrain there in the open space at the top ((: So pretty. And there were these two ballet dancers doing a photo shoot there too and they were super pretty and super skinny that we just couldn't focus during evaluation * U * This was the moment when people are going to question our gender xD Hahahahaha. Anyway, it was really fun and people thought we were weirdos because we stood on this platform in our accessing case formation, holding on to our detachable splints and bandage bag, and after Geena goes "Sir, I access the situation as safe, number two medical supplies, number three casualty, number four inform authorities, numbers take control!" and we go "YES NUMBER ONE!!" then all four of us will jump off the platform together xDD OMG RETARDEDNESS LEVEL OVER INFINITY O U O hahahahaha. After finished 2 cases (?), we went back with the kids in the bus, back to school yo! And then we did footdrill (: Better than what it was before, but standards still not there D: Then we did evaluation and NA did serious planning for the better of ourselves L.L Actually, thinking about it, I rather our mentors be very honest with us because afterall, it was after they smacked reality in our faces during mock comp that we finally woke up and stopped being lazy and stuff. And that's when we really tried. So...hope NA's plans works out and all will be better in no time :D
>> Sunday (today): Finally went to church after so long *guilty* And today Jing En told me she was going but in the end she overslept DD: Aish, haven't seen them in a long long long time. But I don't regret going today because today's sermon was so so so good (: Today was ministry through songs and there was this group of people, I think they're from Malaysia and they make really good songs! (: And they shared testimonies as well and I think it really touched my heart to see what a faithful and mighty God we have (: So today I just wanted to thank God for never forsaking me even when I was walking in places of darkness (: Felt much much much happier and more at peace after leaving church today than ever and I'm glad it was because of the right reasons 8) Went for tuition after that and got niao-ed a little because of my chemistry grades but meh, okay, I will work harder I promise. Gonna do the tuition work later since it's still fresh in my brain (Y) After that went home and then went for mother's day dinner (LATE LATE LATE DINNER!) with my family (: Woots~ Hahaha, and my cousin is coming back from Australia in June! For a month's visit (: Then my family can finally be completed for a little while again :b Can't wait.
It's never too late to go back and fix things that didn't work out as planned. All of us make mistakes and we hurt the people we love. It is possible to fix it. It won't be easy of course, but if you care enough about someone, you'll go around the world and back, just to make things work.
I'm really waiting for the day when all insecurities will leave me and I will find myself worthy of everything.
I regret taking you for granted, because I thought you'd always be there for me. And now that I'm so lonely at nights when I really need someone, you're obviously never there. I'm sorry for pushing you away when you wanted to be by my side. Now you'd be at someone else's side, someone who will never be me, and you don't know how much that pains me.
ALRIGHT, time to study!!!
xoxo,
me ;)
