"Why so serious?"

    It is a mystery why we fall in love.

    It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it come. It is a mystery why some love grow and it is a mystery why some love fail.

    You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes, but you will never do any more than take the life out of the experience. Just as life itself is something more than the sum of bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body, love is something more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share. And just as life itself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so, too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that can not be questioned it its way.

    Sometimes - hopefully at least once in your life - the gift of love will come to you in full flower, and you will take hold of it and celebrate it in all its inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

    When this happens to young people, they too often try to grasp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is a gift freely given and a gift that just as freely moves away. When they fall out of love or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving, they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather than accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on.

    They want answers where there are no answers. They want to know what is wrong with them that makes the other person no longer love them, or they try to get their lover to change, thinking that if some small thing were different love would bloom again. They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away and start a new life together their love will grow.

    They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. But there is no meaning beyond the love itself, and until they accept its own mysterious ways they live in a sea of misery.

    You need to know this about love, and to accept it. You need to treat what it brings you with kindness. If you find yourself in love with a person who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.

    If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him or her, feel honoured that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage, do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how love will deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are very different.

    If you fall in love with another and she falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is meaning. You will know in time, but time itself will choose the moment.

    Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you.

    All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who seem poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in any way you can.

    This is where so many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.

    In the first blush of new love they are filled to overflowing, but as their love cool they revert to seeing their love as a need. They cease to be someone who generate love and instead become someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.

    Remember this and keep it in your heart. Love has its own time, its own season, and its own reasons fr coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave, from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and nothing you should do. Love has always been and will always be a mystery. Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life. If you keep your heart open, it will come again.

- Kent Nerburn

Feeling kind of lost with where my emotions are going right now.

Anyway, school was okay today and I think today was a generally better day as compared to yesterday hehehe, despite the fact that I'm really super tired now D: And I can't believe it's just after tomorrow and we'll go on a four days break * U * Well deserving break I guess (: And then a few more days and we finally break for real for June holidays ((: It's moments like these where I'm so jealous of kids in western countries because they get summer break and it's freaking 3 months long --.-- The longest holiday we have here is the end of year holidays which is 2 months, nothing close to their summer break. Then add all their winter and spring break and all the random holidays TT^TT DO THEY EVEN COME TO SCHOOL. Ugh.

I'm so glad that I went for Dactyl's training this afternoon (: Haven't seen my house for a really really really long time that I can't even remember the last time I went for training )): Missed them a lot :x Things have changed so so so much, and it feels so different to be the one looking over the training when it feels like just yesterday when we were standard ones and training for the first time, or training with the standard threes then and being niao-ed at by Ma'am Huixian (': All the good memories~ Jiayou Dactyl!!! Doesn't matter to me if you guys win anything honestly, as long as you guys have fun and learn as much as possible ((:

And then piano --.-- PAIN IN THE ASS. But I'm kind of motivated now, after slacking for almost half a year. Like, I want to just finish off my last grade quickly so that I will never have to worry about piano lessons ever again .___. It's just so annoying, and plus, we're just gonna get busier. 

So many memories of you that I can't seem to put down.

Alright, gonna go to sleep! Need all the energy possible because tomorrow's gonna be a very long and torturous day!!! TT^TT

xoxo,

me (:

"Why so serious?"

    It is a mystery why we fall in love.

    It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it come. It is a mystery why some love grow and it is a mystery why some love fail.

    You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes, but you will never do any more than take the life out of the experience. Just as life itself is something more than the sum of bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body, love is something more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share. And just as life itself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so, too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that can not be questioned it its way.

    Sometimes - hopefully at least once in your life - the gift of love will come to you in full flower, and you will take hold of it and celebrate it in all its inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

    When this happens to young people, they too often try to grasp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is a gift freely given and a gift that just as freely moves away. When they fall out of love or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving, they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather than accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on.

    They want answers where there are no answers. They want to know what is wrong with them that makes the other person no longer love them, or they try to get their lover to change, thinking that if some small thing were different love would bloom again. They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away and start a new life together their love will grow.

    They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. But there is no meaning beyond the love itself, and until they accept its own mysterious ways they live in a sea of misery.

    You need to know this about love, and to accept it. You need to treat what it brings you with kindness. If you find yourself in love with a person who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.

    If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him or her, feel honoured that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage, do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how love will deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are very different.

    If you fall in love with another and she falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is meaning. You will know in time, but time itself will choose the moment.

    Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you.

    All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who seem poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in any way you can.

    This is where so many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.

    In the first blush of new love they are filled to overflowing, but as their love cool they revert to seeing their love as a need. They cease to be someone who generate love and instead become someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.

    Remember this and keep it in your heart. Love has its own time, its own season, and its own reasons fr coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave, from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and nothing you should do. Love has always been and will always be a mystery. Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life. If you keep your heart open, it will come again.

- Kent Nerburn

Feeling kind of lost with where my emotions are going right now.

Anyway, school was okay today and I think today was a generally better day as compared to yesterday hehehe, despite the fact that I'm really super tired now D: And I can't believe it's just after tomorrow and we'll go on a four days break * U * Well deserving break I guess (: And then a few more days and we finally break for real for June holidays ((: It's moments like these where I'm so jealous of kids in western countries because they get summer break and it's freaking 3 months long --.-- The longest holiday we have here is the end of year holidays which is 2 months, nothing close to their summer break. Then add all their winter and spring break and all the random holidays TT^TT DO THEY EVEN COME TO SCHOOL. Ugh.

I'm so glad that I went for Dactyl's training this afternoon (: Haven't seen my house for a really really really long time that I can't even remember the last time I went for training )): Missed them a lot :x Things have changed so so so much, and it feels so different to be the one looking over the training when it feels like just yesterday when we were standard ones and training for the first time, or training with the standard threes then and being niao-ed at by Ma'am Huixian (': All the good memories~ Jiayou Dactyl!!! Doesn't matter to me if you guys win anything honestly, as long as you guys have fun and learn as much as possible ((:

And then piano --.-- PAIN IN THE ASS. But I'm kind of motivated now, after slacking for almost half a year. Like, I want to just finish off my last grade quickly so that I will never have to worry about piano lessons ever again .___. It's just so annoying, and plus, we're just gonna get busier. 

So many memories of you that I can't seem to put down.

Alright, gonna go to sleep! Need all the energy possible because tomorrow's gonna be a very long and torturous day!!! TT^TT

xoxo,

me (: