In two weeks I've sustained a back injury and I got hit in the head. I'm having a migraine again and I think I'm having heartburn. Just honestly feel so sickly, unfit and accident prone. And now I know why they say that your quality of life is compromised because I perpetually feel like I might fall asleep and die any moment. Which makes me come back to the point of writing this because I am afraid to sleep tonight because I'm afraid I'd somehow die.

Anyway, I want to say that I'm glad that I live in Singapore and that I am a Singaporean. And I know there are bungalows for improvement and some people have so much to complain about our teeny weeny island but I'm glad I was born here and raised here and I have a life like this. We have the capabilities to complain about our life now because our first level of needs are already met, such as safety and security and everything. I was looking at this photograph in Times magazine about a city in Syria after the bombings and how deserted it was and how destroyed it was. And then I read about Boko Haram and how they are perpetually kidnapping school students and killing teachers because of their hatred towards Western education. And because of that these people worry about terrorism, and all they want is to feel safe. And here in Singapore we barely worry about such things and the only thing we worry about are passing our exams and succeeding in life when people somewhere else probably don't have the opportunity to go to school or even see tomorrow. So that struck me. And I am thankful that it is 9pm now but I can still travel in the train and walk home on my own without having to worry about being kidnapped (well, relatively safe) and I get to go home to a home without worrying that I'll come back to a crater created by a bomb or something. Nor do I have to worry about being shot in the streets. And I am thankful that even though I'm being driven crazy by homework, I have a choice to pursue what I really want to do in the future. So I think sometimes we need to pause for a while and instead of complaining about the standard of living and the competition here, say a little word of thanks that at least we have the chance to compete and live. Because some people are not fighting for university places but for the right to live.

I guess I've always been wanting to treasure life as it is but I've never really set it as a goal or try to achieve that but this year I'd really try, especially with all the stress piling up. And I've made a promise to myself to care about the things that truly matter, fight for what means the most to me, let go of things that aren't meant to be, ignore negative people and comments, and last but not least, to spend time with myself because it's alright to be alone.

And I guess you only realise all these when you lose things and you gain things and when it hits you in your face again and again. But better late than never right?

In two weeks I've sustained a back injury and I got hit in the head. I'm having a migraine again and I think I'm having heartburn. Just honestly feel so sickly, unfit and accident prone. And now I know why they say that your quality of life is compromised because I perpetually feel like I might fall asleep and die any moment. Which makes me come back to the point of writing this because I am afraid to sleep tonight because I'm afraid I'd somehow die.

Anyway, I want to say that I'm glad that I live in Singapore and that I am a Singaporean. And I know there are bungalows for improvement and some people have so much to complain about our teeny weeny island but I'm glad I was born here and raised here and I have a life like this. We have the capabilities to complain about our life now because our first level of needs are already met, such as safety and security and everything. I was looking at this photograph in Times magazine about a city in Syria after the bombings and how deserted it was and how destroyed it was. And then I read about Boko Haram and how they are perpetually kidnapping school students and killing teachers because of their hatred towards Western education. And because of that these people worry about terrorism, and all they want is to feel safe. And here in Singapore we barely worry about such things and the only thing we worry about are passing our exams and succeeding in life when people somewhere else probably don't have the opportunity to go to school or even see tomorrow. So that struck me. And I am thankful that it is 9pm now but I can still travel in the train and walk home on my own without having to worry about being kidnapped (well, relatively safe) and I get to go home to a home without worrying that I'll come back to a crater created by a bomb or something. Nor do I have to worry about being shot in the streets. And I am thankful that even though I'm being driven crazy by homework, I have a choice to pursue what I really want to do in the future. So I think sometimes we need to pause for a while and instead of complaining about the standard of living and the competition here, say a little word of thanks that at least we have the chance to compete and live. Because some people are not fighting for university places but for the right to live.

I guess I've always been wanting to treasure life as it is but I've never really set it as a goal or try to achieve that but this year I'd really try, especially with all the stress piling up. And I've made a promise to myself to care about the things that truly matter, fight for what means the most to me, let go of things that aren't meant to be, ignore negative people and comments, and last but not least, to spend time with myself because it's alright to be alone.

And I guess you only realise all these when you lose things and you gain things and when it hits you in your face again and again. But better late than never right?