Days that I used to spend with you are starting to blur and there are no more routines for me to kick out of my system. But I still miss you with every inch of me, and there's not a day that something makes me pause and waver me a little. 

Went for SPH's scholarship talk today and felt slightly out of place because the people there were mostly made out of people who have graduated from JC and are looking for places to apply for scholarships and thinking about which course they should take in university. And then there was me, exploring my options and not really ready to commit to anything. Which is good, I guess. The things they were talking about made me feel a little scared. I think I can commit to many many things, but a job seems like something so long term and that's why it scares me. It's something that's going to take up so much of my time, so it better be something I enjoy and not just something to make sure I have food on my table every day. 

After that I went to school to find Homa (have been seeing these people too many times a week, seriously) and I'm not even very sure what we accomplished but it felt like at least we could get some work done. And I am definitely dreading what comes after orientation because it would mean that I cannot run about on free days and see these people and laugh about stupid things and forget about homework.

Then it was lunch/dinner with NA (: And we've always wanted to go out and eat and stuff but we couldn't find a time so luckily today we could all make it before we all fly overseas and get more busy. Celebrated Charlotte's birthday and I can't believe it but NA's presents are getting more and more ridiculous! It was so funny to see Charlotte's reaction when she received her presents (: But super thankful for the short catch-up and I really missed them a lot. 

Still thinking about my post for December to end off the year on a pretty note. This year definitely signifies closure and new beginnings. 

And I've been looking at photos from Trina's instagram and it really makes me miss my trip to Italy last year. I've always been really bad at names and remembering names of places, so I always cannot remember where I've been. I can remember all the things I did and how beautiful the place looked but I just cannot remember the name of the place. Which is very very regrettable. I miss how when I was there, everything just felt really great. Every year when I go overseas, I always have this feeling that there is something left behind here in Singapore for me to worry about, or things I cannot put down. And it's not always work. Sometimes, it's the people. But when I was in Italy, I really didn't think about coming back. Because the place was so beautiful and I loved the opportunity I had to get away. And it felt okay to be away from people and things. I miss that feeling. I don't like the feeling of being tied down to things that don't even want to be bothered with me.

Days that I used to spend with you are starting to blur and there are no more routines for me to kick out of my system. But I still miss you with every inch of me, and there's not a day that something makes me pause and waver me a little. 

Went for SPH's scholarship talk today and felt slightly out of place because the people there were mostly made out of people who have graduated from JC and are looking for places to apply for scholarships and thinking about which course they should take in university. And then there was me, exploring my options and not really ready to commit to anything. Which is good, I guess. The things they were talking about made me feel a little scared. I think I can commit to many many things, but a job seems like something so long term and that's why it scares me. It's something that's going to take up so much of my time, so it better be something I enjoy and not just something to make sure I have food on my table every day. 

After that I went to school to find Homa (have been seeing these people too many times a week, seriously) and I'm not even very sure what we accomplished but it felt like at least we could get some work done. And I am definitely dreading what comes after orientation because it would mean that I cannot run about on free days and see these people and laugh about stupid things and forget about homework.

Then it was lunch/dinner with NA (: And we've always wanted to go out and eat and stuff but we couldn't find a time so luckily today we could all make it before we all fly overseas and get more busy. Celebrated Charlotte's birthday and I can't believe it but NA's presents are getting more and more ridiculous! It was so funny to see Charlotte's reaction when she received her presents (: But super thankful for the short catch-up and I really missed them a lot. 

Still thinking about my post for December to end off the year on a pretty note. This year definitely signifies closure and new beginnings. 

And I've been looking at photos from Trina's instagram and it really makes me miss my trip to Italy last year. I've always been really bad at names and remembering names of places, so I always cannot remember where I've been. I can remember all the things I did and how beautiful the place looked but I just cannot remember the name of the place. Which is very very regrettable. I miss how when I was there, everything just felt really great. Every year when I go overseas, I always have this feeling that there is something left behind here in Singapore for me to worry about, or things I cannot put down. And it's not always work. Sometimes, it's the people. But when I was in Italy, I really didn't think about coming back. Because the place was so beautiful and I loved the opportunity I had to get away. And it felt okay to be away from people and things. I miss that feeling. I don't like the feeling of being tied down to things that don't even want to be bothered with me.