We have to deal with love and loss and these two things are so often interlinked that people fear love because they fear loss. I lost the person I dreamt of spending my entire life with and I can't do anything but to watch him leave because feelings fade and there's no secret weapon to stop them from fading. But that's just life and I have to accept it. It is hard and it is going to be hard for the next few days, weeks, months and maybe even years; but what can I do but to suck it up and try to move on to the best of my abilities? 

You might take him back in a heartbeat but sometimes things won't work the way you want them to no matter how hard you try.

I will mope around and I will cry and I will zone out once in awhile when something reminds me of him. But this doesn't show that I'm weak because I know I am filled with emotions and the ability to feel them is not a weakness like what people always think. When you let these feelings overwhelm you and run its course and you don't try to numb the pain, it makes you feel alive and how brave you are from not running away. You're facing what hurts the most and you should be proud of yourself from that.

I have indeed become too dependent on him that I lost myself when I lost him. But I am trying. Everyday I am trying. Everyday I try to find a little piece of me lost in the days of grieving and I know for sure that one day I'll think of him and it won't hurt anymore. And that's when I know I've gotten over him because it doesn't hurt anymore.

There will never be the same love twice. I will find someone to be my forever in the future but it won't be the same and he won't be replaced. No one ever gets replaced. They just sit at a corner of your heart and they will stay there. You will think of them less from time to time but they will remain there and they will never leave. You just learn to stop thinking about them because they might not be thinking of you as often as you are. I will still love him with all that I have and I will never stop because there will never be the same love twice. I won't love him the way I will love the next person and it wasn't the same as how I loved the previous and it will never change.

There are more sentimental things I would like to type here but I feel that at this point in time I'm not ready to share them with the world. Maybe some day I will because I've never felt so open and raw with my emotions before. And I hope that through this journey I will grow as a person. Something that keeps me going from day to day is a very wise thing that a teacher told me. She said that it hurts but at least I had the ability to experience love and loss at such a great intensity, and some may not even get the chance to feel this way.

I will choose to believe in the good things we had because they definitely superseded the bad. Ten years from now I'll look back and it probably won't make me feel like crying anymore. I won't forget how it made me feel because he meant so much to me, but it won't hurt anymore.

To all those who experience loss now or whenever, you have to remember the good even if your eyes blur with tears because that's how they'd want you to remember them by. 

Some days I feel braver than normal and I get better. But some days I get so exhausted from the voices in my head that I go back to square one and it's like the wounds are fresh again. But here's the thing: it didn't work out and everyone cries over the death of something and this time it's the death of love. Don't tell me I'm too young to understand because to feel like this is when I know what I was doing all along. I'm not victimizing myself because I hurt him a great deal too. I just thought I should share this to give myself some comfort and to those who truly care. I'm not alright now but I will be.

Thank you to those who've been there all the time. Words can never express how much gratitude I feel towards all of you. You guys make things okay and better, and that's what I need now. 

We have to deal with love and loss and these two things are so often interlinked that people fear love because they fear loss. I lost the person I dreamt of spending my entire life with and I can't do anything but to watch him leave because feelings fade and there's no secret weapon to stop them from fading. But that's just life and I have to accept it. It is hard and it is going to be hard for the next few days, weeks, months and maybe even years; but what can I do but to suck it up and try to move on to the best of my abilities? 

You might take him back in a heartbeat but sometimes things won't work the way you want them to no matter how hard you try.

I will mope around and I will cry and I will zone out once in awhile when something reminds me of him. But this doesn't show that I'm weak because I know I am filled with emotions and the ability to feel them is not a weakness like what people always think. When you let these feelings overwhelm you and run its course and you don't try to numb the pain, it makes you feel alive and how brave you are from not running away. You're facing what hurts the most and you should be proud of yourself from that.

I have indeed become too dependent on him that I lost myself when I lost him. But I am trying. Everyday I am trying. Everyday I try to find a little piece of me lost in the days of grieving and I know for sure that one day I'll think of him and it won't hurt anymore. And that's when I know I've gotten over him because it doesn't hurt anymore.

There will never be the same love twice. I will find someone to be my forever in the future but it won't be the same and he won't be replaced. No one ever gets replaced. They just sit at a corner of your heart and they will stay there. You will think of them less from time to time but they will remain there and they will never leave. You just learn to stop thinking about them because they might not be thinking of you as often as you are. I will still love him with all that I have and I will never stop because there will never be the same love twice. I won't love him the way I will love the next person and it wasn't the same as how I loved the previous and it will never change.

There are more sentimental things I would like to type here but I feel that at this point in time I'm not ready to share them with the world. Maybe some day I will because I've never felt so open and raw with my emotions before. And I hope that through this journey I will grow as a person. Something that keeps me going from day to day is a very wise thing that a teacher told me. She said that it hurts but at least I had the ability to experience love and loss at such a great intensity, and some may not even get the chance to feel this way.

I will choose to believe in the good things we had because they definitely superseded the bad. Ten years from now I'll look back and it probably won't make me feel like crying anymore. I won't forget how it made me feel because he meant so much to me, but it won't hurt anymore.

To all those who experience loss now or whenever, you have to remember the good even if your eyes blur with tears because that's how they'd want you to remember them by. 

Some days I feel braver than normal and I get better. But some days I get so exhausted from the voices in my head that I go back to square one and it's like the wounds are fresh again. But here's the thing: it didn't work out and everyone cries over the death of something and this time it's the death of love. Don't tell me I'm too young to understand because to feel like this is when I know what I was doing all along. I'm not victimizing myself because I hurt him a great deal too. I just thought I should share this to give myself some comfort and to those who truly care. I'm not alright now but I will be.

Thank you to those who've been there all the time. Words can never express how much gratitude I feel towards all of you. You guys make things okay and better, and that's what I need now.