Not going to talk about what happened between us because it's already over but we ended on good terms, at least a lot better than what I expected. I will never stop loving you and I won't get over this so soon but I will be okay because I'm starting to feel that I can actually do this and get on with life even when you're not there. And I hope you know this because I know you'll be proud of me and happy for me. And I also want you to know that you'll always hold a place in my heart and I only wish the best for you all the time, all the time. 

God is really faithful. At first I started getting impatient because I was in so much pain but I had no idea what I could do to lessen the pain. I prayed about it and asked Him if He could just do something or anything to just make things better. He didn't fix the relationship but He showed me His grace by bringing us over this storm and to look at the greater side of a relationship: the care and concern that we can have for people. He may not have given me what I wanted, but He gave me something that means so much more because I know He has plans in store for me. Slowly he will reveal these things. When God takes away something from you, He has His reasons. From this incident, I've actually realised that we have to wait upon the LORD and trust that He will make things better eventually. There is a saying that God gives His toughest battles to His strongest warriors, but there's also a saying that God will not give you more than you can handle. And we can only cast all our cares upon Him. I would like to share the serenity prayer which I think spoke to me a lot during this period of time:

"LORD grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." 

You don't have to be a Christian for this prayer to speak to you I think. It's not always easy to decide when to give up fighting for something and when to let things be, and I struggled with this so many times, not just this time. But this time when I finally decided to give up because it would be better for everyone, I've never felt so at peace before. I'm still extremely sad (sad does not even justify the degree of sorrow actually) but I feel like I've let go of something I would have no way of changing anyway. Even though our fate is always determined by our actions, we should always have the peace in mind to let go of things we can never ever ever change but if we can change something we want to change, we should always have the faith and belief to keep on fighting. I didn't have a choice whether I could keep fighting or not, but we may or may not make the right choices at times but at the end is how we go on from there (:

So many things on my plate, getting really busy. NOT READY.

Not going to talk about what happened between us because it's already over but we ended on good terms, at least a lot better than what I expected. I will never stop loving you and I won't get over this so soon but I will be okay because I'm starting to feel that I can actually do this and get on with life even when you're not there. And I hope you know this because I know you'll be proud of me and happy for me. And I also want you to know that you'll always hold a place in my heart and I only wish the best for you all the time, all the time. 

God is really faithful. At first I started getting impatient because I was in so much pain but I had no idea what I could do to lessen the pain. I prayed about it and asked Him if He could just do something or anything to just make things better. He didn't fix the relationship but He showed me His grace by bringing us over this storm and to look at the greater side of a relationship: the care and concern that we can have for people. He may not have given me what I wanted, but He gave me something that means so much more because I know He has plans in store for me. Slowly he will reveal these things. When God takes away something from you, He has His reasons. From this incident, I've actually realised that we have to wait upon the LORD and trust that He will make things better eventually. There is a saying that God gives His toughest battles to His strongest warriors, but there's also a saying that God will not give you more than you can handle. And we can only cast all our cares upon Him. I would like to share the serenity prayer which I think spoke to me a lot during this period of time:

"LORD grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." 

You don't have to be a Christian for this prayer to speak to you I think. It's not always easy to decide when to give up fighting for something and when to let things be, and I struggled with this so many times, not just this time. But this time when I finally decided to give up because it would be better for everyone, I've never felt so at peace before. I'm still extremely sad (sad does not even justify the degree of sorrow actually) but I feel like I've let go of something I would have no way of changing anyway. Even though our fate is always determined by our actions, we should always have the peace in mind to let go of things we can never ever ever change but if we can change something we want to change, we should always have the faith and belief to keep on fighting. I didn't have a choice whether I could keep fighting or not, but we may or may not make the right choices at times but at the end is how we go on from there (:

So many things on my plate, getting really busy. NOT READY.