I am a very needy person. I need constant reassurance and lots of patience. And I always take things for granted. And I am a very childish person. I will think of ways to spite you and make you angry with me and then point fingers at you. I am incorrigible. I am insecure about everything and I try to cover up by pretending to have an ego to be bigger than my head but it doesn't work at all. I have problems being at peace with myself because I swallowed a never-ending war and it eats me up a little every day. I am extremely selfish and definitely not selfless because now I'm screwing things up between you and me just because I'm feeling upset. I am a very disgusting person because every day I disgust myself I can't even tolerate it. I try to love myself more but it is getting very difficult without anybody's help. I never know when to prioritize because I keep thinking that I am superwoman and I want to accomplish everything. I know I am not superwoman when I remember that superwoman has superpowers but if I were superwoman I would stop failing at everything. I make lots of bad decisions and then regret them but I still don't think before doing anything. I believe in love; I just don't believe in myself. I am a very difficult person to be with, much less live with. I am thankful to everyone who have been with me since the beginning of time; I don't know how you do it because I've been with myself for 17 years now and it just gets harder (does it get better?). I think sometimes I try to be good, like I help a stranger or I tell someone something nice, but it is so fleeting and the next moment something else happens to make me feel bad about myself again. I am average. I am not beautiful, I am just average. I am not bad enough to be called ugly yet (though sometimes I feel like I am). I am not very smart. I can do well if I work very hard or by "brute force" but I have no gifts or talents at anything and I am wondering how is that possible because everyone has to be born with gifts and talents right? I am currently just feeling extremely horrible about myself. I need help.

I am a very needy person. I need constant reassurance and lots of patience. And I always take things for granted. And I am a very childish person. I will think of ways to spite you and make you angry with me and then point fingers at you. I am incorrigible. I am insecure about everything and I try to cover up by pretending to have an ego to be bigger than my head but it doesn't work at all. I have problems being at peace with myself because I swallowed a never-ending war and it eats me up a little every day. I am extremely selfish and definitely not selfless because now I'm screwing things up between you and me just because I'm feeling upset. I am a very disgusting person because every day I disgust myself I can't even tolerate it. I try to love myself more but it is getting very difficult without anybody's help. I never know when to prioritize because I keep thinking that I am superwoman and I want to accomplish everything. I know I am not superwoman when I remember that superwoman has superpowers but if I were superwoman I would stop failing at everything. I make lots of bad decisions and then regret them but I still don't think before doing anything. I believe in love; I just don't believe in myself. I am a very difficult person to be with, much less live with. I am thankful to everyone who have been with me since the beginning of time; I don't know how you do it because I've been with myself for 17 years now and it just gets harder (does it get better?). I think sometimes I try to be good, like I help a stranger or I tell someone something nice, but it is so fleeting and the next moment something else happens to make me feel bad about myself again. I am average. I am not beautiful, I am just average. I am not bad enough to be called ugly yet (though sometimes I feel like I am). I am not very smart. I can do well if I work very hard or by "brute force" but I have no gifts or talents at anything and I am wondering how is that possible because everyone has to be born with gifts and talents right? I am currently just feeling extremely horrible about myself. I need help.

Name: Cheryl
Location: Up in the sky.
DOB: 03/09

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