"Fell under your spell..."

It's Saturday ((: The last day of a long and tiring week. It's only been three days of school and papers but it feels so much longer D: Sighpie. I guess so far the papers were okay...not sure if they would really be okay but just that there wasn't some major screw-up or anything so I'm thankful. Anyway, just one more week to go, and then I'd be free until the results come back (which isn't very far away, just on the following Thursday -.-)

To be honest, it's quite weird to have your entire junior high life based on just this exam. So we work so hard for four years just to take these 7 to 8 papers which will determine your entire senior high life and then what combination you get to take (note: not "want" to take) and then with this combination you take your A levels and everything. No wonder people fear screwing up so much. It's too much of a responsibility to take. 

Yesterday after Bio paper, it honestly felt like the end of EOY hahahaha. Actually it's great that the most content heavy paper for me is over :') But then again, it isn't the paper that I'd suck at the most (ahem math 2 ahem cough cough chem cough) so I still have lots more to worry TT^TT Was supposed to study in school but ended up slacking around with Xiner because I didn't bring my Math formula sheet and I was too lazy to attempt to remember all of them so I just kind of gave up .__. And we just talked and napped and then went off to eat ice-cream hahahaha. Slack day much.

All these will cease to exist one day.

It's lovely to remember details because not everyone remembers details and it's the kind of thing people will least expect someone to remember. 

I just wish I could play a larger role in your life. I wish I didn't have to fight so hard to be noticed by you. I wish I didn't have to wait until something happens to me before you come around. And that you'd trust me because I trust you, just not enough to open up to you. It isn't even about bringing anything further, I just wish things weren't that simple and that superficial because this isn't what I'm looking for. 

I remember

23 things

1. which side of the bed you love waking up on

2. how many times you've cried

3. the lyrics to your favourite song

4. what you are, what you want to be

5. what your worst subject in school is

6. the colour of your eyes when the light comes in

7. how you bite your lips when you're scared

8. the jokes you made

9. your hand in my hand

10. all your broken promises

11. every word you said

12. how you dreamt of travelling the world

13. waiting

14. hurling things at you

15. the streams down your cheeks

16. playing hide-and-seek

17. slumping against a wall in defeat

18. the texts you fired to keep me close

19. how I shut the doors, the windows

20. darkness living in our brightest corner

21. "I'm tired"

22. how your shadow grew

23. sitting here

hoping for

you

y

We were filled with so many broken things but I'm going to brush them away because that's what made it all so beautiful.

xoxo,

me

"Fell under your spell..."

It's Saturday ((: The last day of a long and tiring week. It's only been three days of school and papers but it feels so much longer D: Sighpie. I guess so far the papers were okay...not sure if they would really be okay but just that there wasn't some major screw-up or anything so I'm thankful. Anyway, just one more week to go, and then I'd be free until the results come back (which isn't very far away, just on the following Thursday -.-)

To be honest, it's quite weird to have your entire junior high life based on just this exam. So we work so hard for four years just to take these 7 to 8 papers which will determine your entire senior high life and then what combination you get to take (note: not "want" to take) and then with this combination you take your A levels and everything. No wonder people fear screwing up so much. It's too much of a responsibility to take. 

Yesterday after Bio paper, it honestly felt like the end of EOY hahahaha. Actually it's great that the most content heavy paper for me is over :') But then again, it isn't the paper that I'd suck at the most (ahem math 2 ahem cough cough chem cough) so I still have lots more to worry TT^TT Was supposed to study in school but ended up slacking around with Xiner because I didn't bring my Math formula sheet and I was too lazy to attempt to remember all of them so I just kind of gave up .__. And we just talked and napped and then went off to eat ice-cream hahahaha. Slack day much.

All these will cease to exist one day.

It's lovely to remember details because not everyone remembers details and it's the kind of thing people will least expect someone to remember. 

I just wish I could play a larger role in your life. I wish I didn't have to fight so hard to be noticed by you. I wish I didn't have to wait until something happens to me before you come around. And that you'd trust me because I trust you, just not enough to open up to you. It isn't even about bringing anything further, I just wish things weren't that simple and that superficial because this isn't what I'm looking for. 

I remember

23 things

1. which side of the bed you love waking up on

2. how many times you've cried

3. the lyrics to your favourite song

4. what you are, what you want to be

5. what your worst subject in school is

6. the colour of your eyes when the light comes in

7. how you bite your lips when you're scared

8. the jokes you made

9. your hand in my hand

10. all your broken promises

11. every word you said

12. how you dreamt of travelling the world

13. waiting

14. hurling things at you

15. the streams down your cheeks

16. playing hide-and-seek

17. slumping against a wall in defeat

18. the texts you fired to keep me close

19. how I shut the doors, the windows

20. darkness living in our brightest corner

21. "I'm tired"

22. how your shadow grew

23. sitting here

hoping for

you

y

We were filled with so many broken things but I'm going to brush them away because that's what made it all so beautiful.

xoxo,

me