I thought you would realize if I protected you by your side without a word but I was a fool
Sunday, October 6, 20131:55 AM
"Crazily, sadly, sadly, I want you..."
Sup sup everyone (: Hahahaha, well, feels really weird to be blogging again because I'm not supposed to be (I mean, c'mon, it's 1:09AM now, I should be studying or sleeping :x)
I think the week's been a pretty bad week (other than today :D) because of various reasons.
1. New piano teacher. Now I truly understand the meaning of 只有失去过才懂得珍惜 and I feel bad for actually getting to experience this. And it's true. I never thought that my piano teacher would stop teaching me suddenly. I thought she'd be my teacher all the way until I finish my last grade. But unfortunately, I'm so close to being done with this piano business and she chooses to leave at this time ): So sudden. And then my new piano teacher.......I think she doesn't understand that I suck at this? She doesn't teach (?) but she just kind of expects you to get it on the first try. And she doesn't understand or get it when I try more than five times and I still don't get it. And everything's so rushed. Like, she doesn't even make sure I got it because I really do get it and not just by pure luck that I could play those notes. And she increases the speed, and doesn't give me time to adjust and expects me to keep up with it through the entire song. And then add new stuff in and doesn't give me a chance to slow down. The entire hour I was just praying for the lesson to end quickly because it was like 喘不过气 TT^TT And I told my mum, but she says it's just because I haven't got used to her, but I really cannot SEE myself getting used to her .__. And I just miss my old piano teacher a lot. I feel like there is currently a vacuum in my life and it isn't going to feel right whenever I go for piano lessons ever again.
2. LA Paper 1 was just...really screwed. Or maybe it wasn't but I shall trust my instincts. For once in my entire lifetime of LA, I feel that I trust my AQ skills more than my essay skills though I did better for essay for my entire Y3 to Y4 period. Like, honestly. Now I just feel that we've practised so much for AQ that it's impossible to forget the AQ structure and everything. And for the first time in my life, I faced a mental block where I clean forgotten how to write an essay and what's an essay structure and how an essay is supposed to look like. And I didn't have time and I didn't have ideas on what points I should write. So I just yoloyoloswagswag my way through and I really hope I pass because I don't want to retain. Ms Soh always says that if we do well for the rest of our subjects but fail LA, it'd be really stupid to make us retain when we obviously do fine for other subjects. But thing is, I might just fail the rest of them too.
3. Bad grades. Bad bad bad CA2 grades. Not sure what I've been doing with my life.
The rest of the week was normal. Like, nothing much. Friday was really weird because it was redundant day. Meaning I went to school practically for nothing. Wanted to run out of school and get back before 9AM but I woke up with a runny nose TT^TT What if I run and the germs attack my heart or I get a lack of oxygen because I can't breathe :o And I guess all teachers didn't want to give us undue stress because they were all really nice suddenly ahahaha, just for that day (x Did a lot of concept checking and everything, didn't have lesson related stuff most of the time :/
And today INFINITE'S FIRST WORLD TOUR: ONE GREAT STEP (to forever!!!!!) ugh hahahahahahahahaha. I shall never get over the feels. I am going to rate the intensity of this second to winning Nat Champs. LIKE, ARE YOU KIDDING ME, I'm finally not watching them from a computer screen but they're right in front of me! :DDD Pssssh. And SERIOUSLY, the seats were closer than I thought :3 So we had a really good view (: Hahahahaha best way to end a week 8))) Hehehehehe. And all those songs that we always listen on youtube or on our phones, AND NOW THEY'RE SINGING THEM FOR YOU (((: And when my favourite song came up I just really died because it was just how I imagined it to be :')))) And I have to give them plus points for all the really interesting stuff like the video about how music is dead and Infinite is dead (lolwut) and then them coming in to literally save the world (((x And how they spoke in English throughout the entire concert <3 and="" how="" u="">Sungjong
spoke in our four main languages UGH YOU WEREN'T PERFECT BUT IT'S OKAY * U * And L, omg L L L L you look as good as always and I can't believe it ugh you're real ahaahahahaha. AND THEY SANG OUR SINGAPORE SONG UGH CAN YOU GUYS NOT PLEASE, I have a weak heart DD: Probably not gonna see them in a long time but 'til then, I've to say I had a lovely time (:
Go and watch the fancams if they're available or something okay ahahahahaha THIS IS HEAVEN ON EARTH <3 nbsp="" p="">
On a side note, I'm somehow...relieved at how all these are going. And by relieved I don't mean my mind is at ease but rather nothing bad has happened so far. It's like, I'm hiding all these well enough just much so the right people don't have to know. And I don't want them to know. Because people get bruised hearts and I will never hear the end of everything. And I want to spare myself and everyone else that. Please stay this way, I really like it like that.
Alright, shall go off to sleep now (((: Goodnight, have a great week ahead and all the best for eoys ;) (I didn't forget about eoys k)
xoxo,
me
“People give flowers as present because flowers contain the true meaning of love. Anyone who tries to possess a flower will have to watch its beauty fading. But if you simply look at a flower in the field, you’ll keep it forever. That is what the forest taught me. That you will never be mine, and that is why I will never lose you.”
| — | Paulo Coelho |
