"I can't breathe..."

I've been staring at the blinking cursor for quite some time because I'm not in the mood of doing anything much. I feel like there are many things I want to say but I just don't exactly know how to fit words to it. And I don't know why. I was just sitting there doing nothing and then inside of me I could feel this scream, like it's fighting to get out and I don't know what the hell is happening because I just want to just fling myself somewhere and just make the whole world shut up but I can't because I can't and I just can't. I feel like there is too much going on but I don't want them to happen even though it has to happen. I don't get it I don't get it. And then every day I just over-think and kill myself with all these thoughts whether they are about me, whether they are about someone else, whether everything is my fault, whether I really suck like what they say but I don't know I don't know I don't know. It sounds so stupid to even type like this and think like this because it sounds like such a stupid and tiny problem but it's not it's not it's not. It's tearing me apart and I don't know what I'm doing it's like I cannot control what I'm thinking about and I just want it all to stop because I just feel so helpless and sad now. 

The end. 

"I can't breathe..."

I've been staring at the blinking cursor for quite some time because I'm not in the mood of doing anything much. I feel like there are many things I want to say but I just don't exactly know how to fit words to it. And I don't know why. I was just sitting there doing nothing and then inside of me I could feel this scream, like it's fighting to get out and I don't know what the hell is happening because I just want to just fling myself somewhere and just make the whole world shut up but I can't because I can't and I just can't. I feel like there is too much going on but I don't want them to happen even though it has to happen. I don't get it I don't get it. And then every day I just over-think and kill myself with all these thoughts whether they are about me, whether they are about someone else, whether everything is my fault, whether I really suck like what they say but I don't know I don't know I don't know. It sounds so stupid to even type like this and think like this because it sounds like such a stupid and tiny problem but it's not it's not it's not. It's tearing me apart and I don't know what I'm doing it's like I cannot control what I'm thinking about and I just want it all to stop because I just feel so helpless and sad now. 

The end.