Y'know those kind of feeling...when you just feel like giving up on everything that you've always believed in and some part of you is aching and telling you that you can't and you have to keep trying but another part of you is telling yourself that you're tired now, and it's time to rest and forget about all these things because someone would worry about them but then you smack yourself on your head and tell yourself, no if you don't worry no one else would because this is a problem that only you feel so much for and then you're so confused and you feel like shutting down and screaming it all out but you can't find anyone to talk to and even if you found someone, all these feelings are just too overwhelming to put into words, lest make them comprehend and it just feels like it'd all be better after a good cry or a good sleep and maybe it would be better when you see tomorrow's sunlight but if this continues, you don't know how long you can go on doing this and not knowing how everything would turn out and you pressurize yourself about how things would turn out differently if something didn't happen or something else happen or that something didn't even exist at all, but if it didn't happen then you probably would be missing out on all the good stuff that you were glad happened. I don't know; my heart is so heavy and I just feel that I can't take all this any longer and I don't know where to turn to nor who to tell because it sounds so trivial, even when I tell it to myself. It sounds so much like just a story that children tell their parents to gain their attention and it almost feels like one when I face it but then I remind myself that if it were just a children story, I wouldn't be feeling so horrible now. What's wrong what's wrong what's wrong? I am just so tired of feeling this way but being unable to identify what this feeling actually is.

Y'know those kind of feeling...when you just feel like giving up on everything that you've always believed in and some part of you is aching and telling you that you can't and you have to keep trying but another part of you is telling yourself that you're tired now, and it's time to rest and forget about all these things because someone would worry about them but then you smack yourself on your head and tell yourself, no if you don't worry no one else would because this is a problem that only you feel so much for and then you're so confused and you feel like shutting down and screaming it all out but you can't find anyone to talk to and even if you found someone, all these feelings are just too overwhelming to put into words, lest make them comprehend and it just feels like it'd all be better after a good cry or a good sleep and maybe it would be better when you see tomorrow's sunlight but if this continues, you don't know how long you can go on doing this and not knowing how everything would turn out and you pressurize yourself about how things would turn out differently if something didn't happen or something else happen or that something didn't even exist at all, but if it didn't happen then you probably would be missing out on all the good stuff that you were glad happened. I don't know; my heart is so heavy and I just feel that I can't take all this any longer and I don't know where to turn to nor who to tell because it sounds so trivial, even when I tell it to myself. It sounds so much like just a story that children tell their parents to gain their attention and it almost feels like one when I face it but then I remind myself that if it were just a children story, I wouldn't be feeling so horrible now. What's wrong what's wrong what's wrong? I am just so tired of feeling this way but being unable to identify what this feeling actually is.

Name: Cheryl
Location: Up in the sky.
DOB: 03/09

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