I don't want to be so easily forgotten. I want you to feel like something is amiss or you can't breathe that easily or your mind is lost in a tornado when I'm not around. I don't want you to be carried away doing something else or laughing at something that isn't even funny. I want you to need me and want me and not make me feel like I'm just existing for no particular reason. I am so selfish but I can't think of a better way to feel needed other than wishing for your misery and I your cure.

"Math was pretty bad" would be a lie because it was VERY bad. I can't even think of a proper word to describe it. I wonder if anyone actually thought it was okay because it was so difficult that my brain feels like it left some brain cells behind in the hall when I left school. I currently have two more papers tomorrow to save my sorry ass (and to prevent me from spending one more year in this hell hole) and as much as I want to do well, I feel very demoralized. Never good at math, but I've been really trying and I actually thought I was better prepared than I was before. But okay, Math doesn't give you a chance to feel okay about yourself because it just hits you hard and knock you out and you've got no choice but to look forward and move on.

This whole thing is like one big snowball. What you leave to tomorrow to do will take up the time where you were supposed to complete something else and it will just snowball and snowball and snowball until you can't even keep track of what's going on anymore. And this stupidity will just increase and increase until no one can help you and your brain just turns to mush and you look back like 10 years ago and wonder, why didn't you just complete that damn worksheet.

I don't want to be so easily forgotten. I want you to feel like something is amiss or you can't breathe that easily or your mind is lost in a tornado when I'm not around. I don't want you to be carried away doing something else or laughing at something that isn't even funny. I want you to need me and want me and not make me feel like I'm just existing for no particular reason. I am so selfish but I can't think of a better way to feel needed other than wishing for your misery and I your cure.

"Math was pretty bad" would be a lie because it was VERY bad. I can't even think of a proper word to describe it. I wonder if anyone actually thought it was okay because it was so difficult that my brain feels like it left some brain cells behind in the hall when I left school. I currently have two more papers tomorrow to save my sorry ass (and to prevent me from spending one more year in this hell hole) and as much as I want to do well, I feel very demoralized. Never good at math, but I've been really trying and I actually thought I was better prepared than I was before. But okay, Math doesn't give you a chance to feel okay about yourself because it just hits you hard and knock you out and you've got no choice but to look forward and move on.

This whole thing is like one big snowball. What you leave to tomorrow to do will take up the time where you were supposed to complete something else and it will just snowball and snowball and snowball until you can't even keep track of what's going on anymore. And this stupidity will just increase and increase until no one can help you and your brain just turns to mush and you look back like 10 years ago and wonder, why didn't you just complete that damn worksheet.