Lost to find lost you.
Saturday, September 20, 20141:25 PM
"So don't you give up on you dreams."
He might not be the most interesting person in the world, but he has a brain filled with countless of ideas on how to prank people and he will look for you to tell you about his plans and to make you say yes to doing it with him. Don't ever say no or be afraid to try. I hope you look him in the eye and tell him it is a stupid plan and you are willing to do it with him. He loves to watch football and he will tell you the number of World Cups he has left to watch until the end of his life. Don't laugh at him. I hope you know enough about soccer and football to tell him you will travel with him to watch it live someday. He will ask you to go running with him and don't you ever say you're lazy to or you hate running. I hope you are athletic enough to play whatever sports he wants to play, and run 'til the sun sets and the world just dims to an end.
He will sit in a food court and order everything he wants yet say it isn't enough. Don't call him a pig, don't call him a glutton. I hope you're never that self-conscious about your weight that you even deny him of eating everything he wants. I hope you let him indulge in anything and everything because you want to see him happy. He will not decide for you where to go or what to do when you have nothing planned out for the day. Don't get upset and disappointed. I hope you are someone fun and creative enough to take his hand and lead him to play, lead him wherever you want because he will follow and because he loves you enough to follow.
He loves animals and he will want you to go and pet all the dogs and cats and anything you see on the streets. He will want to have a dog or a cat at home. Don't say no. Don't say they will shed fur and make the house a mess. I hope you aren't afraid of animals and I hope you want to have as many of them as possible in your house with him in the future, because that's what would make him happy and I promise it's worth it to see him happy.
He will watch sad movies and cry. He will make you watch Disney films because he said they're heartwarming and they make him feel fuzzy inside. Don't brush him off and say "that's gay". Don't opt for something you want to watch. I hope you let him have his way. I hope you say how much of a child he is. I hope you love that because that was the best part of him that I loved the most.
He will want to hold your hand whenever you're walking, or when you're on the bus. He will kiss you when there is no one in the same aisle as you guys in a supermarket. He will pull you closer for a hug whenever he feels like it. Don't slap his hand away, don't push him away because you're afraid of what people might think. I hope you screw the world and give him whatever he wants because the day he stops doing that would be the day you regret the most.
He will do things that make you upset and there will be days when things are everything but perfect. Don't fight with him, don't walk away and leave him upset. Don't say hurting things. I hope you say sorry and I hope you go back to him because the times when I didn't, I've never felt so alone.
He will leave you silly notes and draw you funny pictures. Don't leave them on your table or in your bag or in your file. I hope you keep them in a nice little box and protect it from the eyes of the rest of the world because he only wrote them to you and you have to keep them because they are the loveliest gifts of all time. He will shy away if you ever hold a camera to his face. Don't stop. Never stop. Because when you secretly snap a shot of him, even when he's not smiling, he's the most beautiful person on earth.
He will fall asleep when he is tired, even when he is holding onto his phone while texting you. Don't get grumpy the next day and be all sad and stupid. I hope you remember that he is human and he doesn't have all his time for you and you will laugh softly when he falls asleep first in the future and you won't say a word but just snuggle up to him.
He will do things that are important to him and he might forget that you're waiting on the other side of the world. Don't flare up, don't ignore him when he finally remembers. I hope you have a heart as deep and as wide as the ocean that you will forgive him no matter what he does wrong. It is never worth it to spend the little time you have with him being angry and mad at him.
He will feel bad about himself on bad days and he will want you to be there all the time. Don't turn away. Don't ever feel that it is unfair that you have to be there on his bad days. I hope you remember that he'll be there to hold you on your bad days, and that he has every right and every reason to need you as much as you need him.
He will love you. Undoubtedly. Without any conditions or reason. And I hope you see that, and you believe him and you love him all the same.