"You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important, that without them you feel like nothing."

Once again, I've finished another book in a few days and I'm currently feeling very empty right now. This is the reason why my mum stopped buying me books because she insists that it would be more economically friendly if I just make a trip to the library instead. And now I see why because once I'm done with a book it just leaves me craving for more and then I have to start the whole process of saving up for one again. To be honest, I haven't borrowed a book from the library that I liked so much that I'd love to keep as my own. I always find mediocre books that I just read to fill up the void which exists when I don't read for a long time. And heck, I haven't even borrowed anything from my school library ever since year 1. So I quite like the feeling of the book that I am super sure I'd like forever sitting on my shelf and I can proudly say that 99.9% of my books are books that I will read again and again and not get tired of. That's why I buy them.

Currently feeling very amused (and full!!!!) because I'm watching my fingers as they type from the reflection of the screen and very very very amused.

The Lover's Dictionary just tore my life apart and I can't stop thinking if the ending is truly the ending because the book wasn't in sequence and everything and maybe the end is supposed to be the beginning, or the middle but just not the end??? I have no idea and I'm feeling so sad because as anonymous as the female and male characters are, they sound cute together despite both of them being asses to each other but OH NO THEY CAN'T SEPARATE WHEN THINGS WERE JUST GETTING BETTER AND ONE OF THEM WAS FEELING OPTIMISTIC AND ALL. Ugh.

Leadership Symposium on Friday and Saturday and despite it being the same every year, I thought this year was better and that's good. Even though I couldn't bring myself to be enthusiastic and everything because I didn't have friends (LOL YES), I thought the experience was still great nonetheless. In year 3 when I went with Keane and Geena and we had a Hong Kong buddy and it was super fun walking and eating at Orchard Road, and taking pictures :') Personally I didn't think the talks were helpful. I mean, they were inspiring and everything, but I felt that it wasn't for me and it wasn't what I could take home something from. Maybe because I don't want to be successful successful, because success really means little to me in terms of the corporate way. I really think success is to be happy and contented and for me, it doesn't have to be as large scale as doing something big or making what I love my job or whatever. So I thought that the best part was the closing ceremony not because it marked the end of the symposium (HEHEHEHE) but because we got to see the exchange students perform and I really appreciate everything that they have put up because it reflects so much that people, no matter where they're from, and despite of the differences can still come together and have fun. And the food was good. Just saying.

"You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important, that without them you feel like nothing."

Once again, I've finished another book in a few days and I'm currently feeling very empty right now. This is the reason why my mum stopped buying me books because she insists that it would be more economically friendly if I just make a trip to the library instead. And now I see why because once I'm done with a book it just leaves me craving for more and then I have to start the whole process of saving up for one again. To be honest, I haven't borrowed a book from the library that I liked so much that I'd love to keep as my own. I always find mediocre books that I just read to fill up the void which exists when I don't read for a long time. And heck, I haven't even borrowed anything from my school library ever since year 1. So I quite like the feeling of the book that I am super sure I'd like forever sitting on my shelf and I can proudly say that 99.9% of my books are books that I will read again and again and not get tired of. That's why I buy them.

Currently feeling very amused (and full!!!!) because I'm watching my fingers as they type from the reflection of the screen and very very very amused.

The Lover's Dictionary just tore my life apart and I can't stop thinking if the ending is truly the ending because the book wasn't in sequence and everything and maybe the end is supposed to be the beginning, or the middle but just not the end??? I have no idea and I'm feeling so sad because as anonymous as the female and male characters are, they sound cute together despite both of them being asses to each other but OH NO THEY CAN'T SEPARATE WHEN THINGS WERE JUST GETTING BETTER AND ONE OF THEM WAS FEELING OPTIMISTIC AND ALL. Ugh.

Leadership Symposium on Friday and Saturday and despite it being the same every year, I thought this year was better and that's good. Even though I couldn't bring myself to be enthusiastic and everything because I didn't have friends (LOL YES), I thought the experience was still great nonetheless. In year 3 when I went with Keane and Geena and we had a Hong Kong buddy and it was super fun walking and eating at Orchard Road, and taking pictures :') Personally I didn't think the talks were helpful. I mean, they were inspiring and everything, but I felt that it wasn't for me and it wasn't what I could take home something from. Maybe because I don't want to be successful successful, because success really means little to me in terms of the corporate way. I really think success is to be happy and contented and for me, it doesn't have to be as large scale as doing something big or making what I love my job or whatever. So I thought that the best part was the closing ceremony not because it marked the end of the symposium (HEHEHEHE) but because we got to see the exchange students perform and I really appreciate everything that they have put up because it reflects so much that people, no matter where they're from, and despite of the differences can still come together and have fun. And the food was good. Just saying.