"She wanted to leave. I loved her too much to make her stay."

Youtube is having an internal server error and I'm really really devastated because I can't get my daily dose of videos ):

Yesterday was pretty okay (: I was expecting it to be really awkward and everything but thankfully Diane came to my rescue by being present hahahaha. I guess we finished what we were supposed to finish pretty quickly because we started slightly after 9AM but we were done by 1PM so a round of applause please. Was pretty zonked out by the time we went back to school to shower and the rest were appalled that I didn't bring extra pants because what's the point of bringing everything else but no pants. And I didn't have tower and soap too so guess who was the dirtiest among everyone. /sobs/ Maybe I need to put a showering kit and cleanliness kit with all the different kinds of wash and a first-aid kit because everyone gets amazed when I don't have plasters (WHY AM I STEREOTYPED) all into my bag and lug it with me everyday.

Saw the netball people training and I'm not very sure if I should go back there because I'm having lots of second thoughts. Saw the people from dance too like Kester and Elaine, and I guess it feels great to watch people fall so easily into the things that they enjoy doing and stuff. So all in all it was a pretty awesome day hahahaha.

I WENT TO THE ZOO ON MONDAY HAHAHAHAHA but it's different now. I don't remember seeing so few of each kind of animal, or was it always like that :o It has changed so much that I don't recognise 90% of the places and the animals just look very sad and lonely and listless. I think they need to adopt Australia's zoo style where most of their animals roam freely in the zoo, even emus and kangaroos and wallabies and everything. Sure, the zoo is fun and it protects these animals in a way but it's saddening to imagine how these animals are probably going to be cooped up for the rest of their lives ):

I've made up my mind that since you've given up so much for me, I'm going to make sure everything works out the way you've always wanted it to be so that you wouldn't have done everything you've done for nothing. I care, and I want to always care. You've added meaning to the things I've sworn to do, and I want to do them because you mean so much and I know that if you were in the same position as me, you'd do everything the same way. It's your legacy, and even though you can't be here to do it, I'll finish it up for you.

So there's been a slight change to my subject combination for Senior High and even though I should be happy (?) I have no idea what to feel. I'm feeling kind of...skeptical. I kind of just resigned to fate and was looking forward to the combination that they've given me on Sunday (when they released the results) and I wanted to start Senior High with the right kind of people in my class. But somehow now that I've been given something that I ought to want, I'm not sure if it's the right thing to feel and the right thing to want. 

So guess who attempted to study the new Math syllabus and then realised that it's impossible because everything's too complicated? (x To be honest this holiday doesn't seem like a holiday other than the random breaks between days filled with things to do. It's insane. 

"She wanted to leave. I loved her too much to make her stay."

Youtube is having an internal server error and I'm really really devastated because I can't get my daily dose of videos ):

Yesterday was pretty okay (: I was expecting it to be really awkward and everything but thankfully Diane came to my rescue by being present hahahaha. I guess we finished what we were supposed to finish pretty quickly because we started slightly after 9AM but we were done by 1PM so a round of applause please. Was pretty zonked out by the time we went back to school to shower and the rest were appalled that I didn't bring extra pants because what's the point of bringing everything else but no pants. And I didn't have tower and soap too so guess who was the dirtiest among everyone. /sobs/ Maybe I need to put a showering kit and cleanliness kit with all the different kinds of wash and a first-aid kit because everyone gets amazed when I don't have plasters (WHY AM I STEREOTYPED) all into my bag and lug it with me everyday.

Saw the netball people training and I'm not very sure if I should go back there because I'm having lots of second thoughts. Saw the people from dance too like Kester and Elaine, and I guess it feels great to watch people fall so easily into the things that they enjoy doing and stuff. So all in all it was a pretty awesome day hahahaha.

I WENT TO THE ZOO ON MONDAY HAHAHAHAHA but it's different now. I don't remember seeing so few of each kind of animal, or was it always like that :o It has changed so much that I don't recognise 90% of the places and the animals just look very sad and lonely and listless. I think they need to adopt Australia's zoo style where most of their animals roam freely in the zoo, even emus and kangaroos and wallabies and everything. Sure, the zoo is fun and it protects these animals in a way but it's saddening to imagine how these animals are probably going to be cooped up for the rest of their lives ):

I've made up my mind that since you've given up so much for me, I'm going to make sure everything works out the way you've always wanted it to be so that you wouldn't have done everything you've done for nothing. I care, and I want to always care. You've added meaning to the things I've sworn to do, and I want to do them because you mean so much and I know that if you were in the same position as me, you'd do everything the same way. It's your legacy, and even though you can't be here to do it, I'll finish it up for you.

So there's been a slight change to my subject combination for Senior High and even though I should be happy (?) I have no idea what to feel. I'm feeling kind of...skeptical. I kind of just resigned to fate and was looking forward to the combination that they've given me on Sunday (when they released the results) and I wanted to start Senior High with the right kind of people in my class. But somehow now that I've been given something that I ought to want, I'm not sure if it's the right thing to feel and the right thing to want. 

So guess who attempted to study the new Math syllabus and then realised that it's impossible because everything's too complicated? (x To be honest this holiday doesn't seem like a holiday other than the random breaks between days filled with things to do. It's insane.