"Sometimes love isn't enough..."

I'm just proof-reading my literature portfolio and I think it's quite stupid that I'm doing the proof reading because like every sane person, we all tend to get a little protective over our work and we give ourselves bungalows of allowance so... But I really don't wish to get someone to do it because it's either people: 1) say it's good either because it's really good (nah.) or because they feel obliged to do so (90% of people will never tell someone something of theirs sucks because we're all feeling nice suddenly) or 2) criticize it and then make me upset (and then I'd probably turn that episode into another poem which isn't very lovely). Anyway, I really don't want to hand this up though. It's like, sharing my thoughts with others which I'm not very keen on and plus, it's supposed to be "good" and "beautiful" and "lit-ish" but I don't think it is okay. Not sure why we're being graded on how much we feel for certain stuff and if it's enough to turn it into a literature work ):

I've been feeling pretty frustrated recently because of all the things due and upcoming EOYs and stuff TT^TT I'm really afraid of what's to come. It's like, sometimes I don't study and I fail, and I don't feel much because it's my fault that I didn't put in any effort. Then sometimes I really want to do well for something so I study really hard for a test but in the end I still fail. I know it isn't right to give up now and things like that, and I'm not going to, but I just have to say that it's demoralizing all the same. 

Over-thinking kills.

I want a great getaway but with the right people at the right time. I found the right time but I haven't got the right people. So many things I want to see, so many things I want to experience, so many places I want to get lost in. But I haven't got a clue how I'm going to do that and everything. Don't you think it'd be really wonderful if you could just get off at somewhere and then go wherever a train takes you?

Today was a good day (: We had PE today and it rained again, just like last week ): So we were stuck in the table tennis room again and as you all know, I suck at all kinds of sports so... Anyway, now the table tennis rooms have air-cons installed so you never have to perspire a lot when you play table tennis 8) Hahahaha. And because of that, I managed to stay awake during Chemistry in the Math Sphere :D #achievementunlocked And I was quite pleased with myself that I could understand macromolecules~ 

After that I went home with Jaslyn, Natasha and Felicia via circle line, which isn't my usual mode of transport home. And at the station we met Enyou, Beatrice, Kester, Celine and Clara 8) Hahahaha it was like a really mini 4D outing and so we talked and stuff (: They were so amused by my house and they didn't know what apartments look like xD And it was the first time I had so many people going towards Serangoon (: It was nice having company and all, especially since they were all really nice people and I kind of feel sad that this is our last year together, especially since I've known a few of them better only this year ): Ugh.

I really wish I knew what's running through your mind every single time you do something like that. Don't you know it hurts? Don't you know you're too perfect and it's hurting to look at you?

Alright, I shall begin studying soon (: I'm glad that I'm going to study with Jaslyn and Natasha soon hahaha (wah get to study with pretty girl on instagram wor, jealous anyone) so yepyep.

xoxo,

me 

"Sometimes love isn't enough..."

I'm just proof-reading my literature portfolio and I think it's quite stupid that I'm doing the proof reading because like every sane person, we all tend to get a little protective over our work and we give ourselves bungalows of allowance so... But I really don't wish to get someone to do it because it's either people: 1) say it's good either because it's really good (nah.) or because they feel obliged to do so (90% of people will never tell someone something of theirs sucks because we're all feeling nice suddenly) or 2) criticize it and then make me upset (and then I'd probably turn that episode into another poem which isn't very lovely). Anyway, I really don't want to hand this up though. It's like, sharing my thoughts with others which I'm not very keen on and plus, it's supposed to be "good" and "beautiful" and "lit-ish" but I don't think it is okay. Not sure why we're being graded on how much we feel for certain stuff and if it's enough to turn it into a literature work ):

I've been feeling pretty frustrated recently because of all the things due and upcoming EOYs and stuff TT^TT I'm really afraid of what's to come. It's like, sometimes I don't study and I fail, and I don't feel much because it's my fault that I didn't put in any effort. Then sometimes I really want to do well for something so I study really hard for a test but in the end I still fail. I know it isn't right to give up now and things like that, and I'm not going to, but I just have to say that it's demoralizing all the same. 

Over-thinking kills.

I want a great getaway but with the right people at the right time. I found the right time but I haven't got the right people. So many things I want to see, so many things I want to experience, so many places I want to get lost in. But I haven't got a clue how I'm going to do that and everything. Don't you think it'd be really wonderful if you could just get off at somewhere and then go wherever a train takes you?

Today was a good day (: We had PE today and it rained again, just like last week ): So we were stuck in the table tennis room again and as you all know, I suck at all kinds of sports so... Anyway, now the table tennis rooms have air-cons installed so you never have to perspire a lot when you play table tennis 8) Hahahaha. And because of that, I managed to stay awake during Chemistry in the Math Sphere :D #achievementunlocked And I was quite pleased with myself that I could understand macromolecules~ 

After that I went home with Jaslyn, Natasha and Felicia via circle line, which isn't my usual mode of transport home. And at the station we met Enyou, Beatrice, Kester, Celine and Clara 8) Hahahaha it was like a really mini 4D outing and so we talked and stuff (: They were so amused by my house and they didn't know what apartments look like xD And it was the first time I had so many people going towards Serangoon (: It was nice having company and all, especially since they were all really nice people and I kind of feel sad that this is our last year together, especially since I've known a few of them better only this year ): Ugh.

I really wish I knew what's running through your mind every single time you do something like that. Don't you know it hurts? Don't you know you're too perfect and it's hurting to look at you?

Alright, I shall begin studying soon (: I'm glad that I'm going to study with Jaslyn and Natasha soon hahaha (wah get to study with pretty girl on instagram wor, jealous anyone) so yepyep.

xoxo,

me