#29 : Infinitely yours.
Sunday, February 26, 201210:58 PM
"Somebody..."
^ Picture: HAHA, for a change, shall put Woohyun since the latest photos on Tumblr of L ain't that fantastic )); Haish, some one should capture really glam ones of him yeah. Hahas. And yes, haven't been blogging for...ages? And I have decided to sound more...decent in my blog posts since I'm growing up and yeah, I should try to grow up in my speech too. Hahas, random but yes, I'm serious.
>> Thursday: All I can say for this day is that it was filled with demoralizing moments and all I wanted to do was to call it quits and then just give up on wanting to win Nat Champs. I couldn't time louder than Sgt Junhern during morning footdrill and Geena couldn't command louder than SC and since we're all hard of hearing, we just screwed up the entire FD sequence. And during CT, I don't know, just felt so screwed that I didn't feel much satisfaction. That's all for Thursday. THE END.
>> Friday: There was no RT hahas, quite disappointed because I really missed squad moments but yeah. So in the end had extra comp trains. Supposed to go Geena's house to watch movie but apparently they all wanted Comp trains and what's comp train without your Number 3? Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha xD Comp train was slightly demoralizing because as usual I didn't read up much on Home Nursing DD: Sian. But okay, was passable. Had random high moments during CT because of the epic Home Nursing Teddy Bear that we always gay with (x Yay, love Home Nursing. Gay moments with the rest as usual in canteen and we went around impersonating atoms xDD HAHAHA. Epic. Oh and in the HN manual, it said that to be a "successful" (?) nurse, you have to be gentle. And when I saw that, I seriously had to read it twice. GENTLE. Serious bro. I'm like the one who gets told off the most (other than Peiqi xD) to be demure and walk properly/put my hands behind my back/talk nicely to patient/be more patient/don't shout blahblahblah ._. AW MAN, this is hard.
>> Saturday: Fucked up day. So shall not dwell on it. Spent so long crying, don't want to think about it ever again.
^ Because that's the only place I know where you'll definitely be.
I am not angry with you guys, I'm just terribly sad because I thought I could trust you. But you just proved me wrong. And I really wish you didn't because...I know how awesome you can get but I don't understand why you turned out to be like this. I wish it was just a simple mistake and not a failing as a friend on my part. Because all I really want to see is that you stop feeling like this, and there's a happy ending to everything. I don't hate you; no hard feelings now. I might have had them a few moments ago, but they ended when I thought for a while. Seriously. I don't know why you had to "betray" this trust and make it sound like I had it coming. I really trusted you and I wanted you to have a share of my life. And I really don't know why you had to go to them and tell them that me being with you was......I don't know how to put it down. I just want you to know that whatever has happened was nobody's fault but at the same time everyone's fault. I wish you'd stop running away from the simple truth and we'd learn how to open up our narrow-minded hearts and so that at the end of the day, we'll be friends again. Squadmates = family. Hope you understand this and this would blow over soon.
^ *dies*
Time to time, I still think about you and what we shared. But now, I can think about you without feeling the stabbing in my heart. It doesn't matter now where you are or how you are because I know how much effort you once put in, and I'm glad you did, even for a while.
In the end, we just want you guys to understand. And of course, to feel proud of us.
xoxo,
ME!
P.S. Hope that tomorrow would be a better day.
